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Right so it's been a while, kinda forgot about xanga, plus myspace can get pretty addicting sometimes lol. So let's see, lately i've been thinking about the future, a whole lot, lots of stuff changing around me, nothing i can do to stop it, obviously, life is all up in the air and leaving me hanging... Through all of this... i've learned so much, first i wasn't at all ready for the leap, but sometimes we just have to grab God's hand and realize that no matter what, He will never leave us jumping alone, and though it feels empty handed, sometimes that is the best and sweetest surrender.. that's my summer for you, wrapped up tight, and shoved into a little box with a one liner heading... sweet surrdener, i mean sure.. for me it felt like one letdown after another, but God knows exactly what we need to open our eyes, and idk about you guys but im a subborn person, probably one of the most stubborn people you know, and God knows that as well... so this has been on crazy ride. & sure it's not over and it's most definitely not easy, i've said i'd change and move along.. get over stuff for soooo flipping long.. lol... but there i am.. only a step ahed.. subconsciously thinking "ok yeah God you helped me, now i can take it from here i think" don't think so.. cause that's how it's always been, and where has it always left me, broken, hurt and feeling alone..literally, so that's what im working on... constantly remembering God is right there with me, He is the only way out... there is NO better way... it's just not possible.. sure we look back on mistakes and that oh so broken road.. but there's a better way, look back on the past but don't dwell on it.. there's a difference.. dwelling on something puts you right back there,  gets you wishing you were still there.. not a good state of mind.. let me tell you, but looking back.. and realizing how much you've learned, how much you've grown... how much God has blessed you.. how powerful is that?! it should blow your mind... that's God, and i still have soo much to learn... life's a journey... but if we keep God infront and the past in the rear view mirror.. good to go, not saying you'll never face trial ever again cause hey God never said it would be easy.. He said He'd be there... end of story.

So that's my rambling for the night...  Tomorrow im up going to work w/ mom and des, getting my hair colored and hanging out there... Katie dear i miss you and i really wanna try to get a ride up next week and visit you all! <333 sweet dreams, till next time

- Chels

P.S. note to self : less computer... more BASKETBALL