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So Far Away...

Sun, 27 May 2007 19:44:34 GMT

So far away she sits, lost for words, lost for hopes and dreams
Though she's been here countless times before
It get's so hard to just ignore
That aching curiosity that screams...
"Well what if she was right and all of you were wrong?"

& it's key, you know, you'll learn one day..
leave no traces, she'll pick up the pieces someday.
& i heard what you said, you wouldn't be moved.
we're all holding our breath in hope of some good
but we lived while we could, and we have no regrets.

.. only the things we swore we {always} meant.

~ CLL ~

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 22:54:07 GMT

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
~~Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse~~
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

~~Swing life away~~

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 04:14:48 GMT

Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Got to love that afro hair do.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer?
Do what you want to.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Oh, you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

Conversations

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 03:03:02 GMT

Right so it's been a while, kinda forgot about xanga, plus myspace can get pretty addicting sometimes lol. So let's see, lately i've been thinking about the future, a whole lot, lots of stuff changing around me, nothing i can do to stop it, obviously, life is all up in the air and leaving me hanging... Through all of this... i've learned so much, first i wasn't at all ready for the leap, but sometimes we just have to grab God's hand and realize that no matter what, He will never leave us jumping alone, and though it feels empty handed, sometimes that is the best and sweetest surrender.. that's my summer for you, wrapped up tight, and shoved into a little box with a one liner heading... sweet surrdener, i mean sure.. for me it felt like one letdown after another, but God knows exactly what we need to open our eyes, and idk about you guys but im a subborn person, probably one of the most stubborn people you know, and God knows that as well... so this has been on crazy ride. & sure it's not over and it's most definitely not easy, i've said i'd change and move along.. get over stuff for soooo flipping long.. lol... but there i am.. only a step ahed.. subconsciously thinking "ok yeah God you helped me, now i can take it from here i think" don't think so.. cause that's how it's always been, and where has it always left me, broken, hurt and feeling alone..literally, so that's what im working on... constantly remembering God is right there with me, He is the only way out... there is NO better way... it's just not possible.. sure we look back on mistakes and that oh so broken road.. but there's a better way, look back on the past but don't dwell on it.. there's a difference.. dwelling on something puts you right back there, gets you wishing you were still there.. not a good state of mind.. let me tell you, but looking back.. and realizing how much you've learned, how much you've grown... how much God has blessed you.. how powerful is that?! it should blow your mind... that's God, and i still have soo much to learn... life's a journey... but if we keep God infront and the past in the rear view mirror.. good to go, not saying you'll never face trial ever again cause hey God never said it would be easy.. He said He'd be there... end of story.

So that's my rambling for the night... Tomorrow im up going to work w/ mom and des, getting my hair colored and hanging out there... Katie dear i miss you and i really wanna try to get a ride up next week and visit you all! <333 sweet dreams, till next time

- Chels

P.S. note to self : less computer... more BASKETBALL

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 21:04:43 GMT

So i guess there's not really much that can be said... lots has happened, this summer has already been a rollercoaster ride, God has been teaching me so much [as He always does, without fail ] =) & it's great to see the growth, also i've noticed spiritual growth in others, and idk about you but i just find it absolutely amazing! Hmm well i shall save the "profound" thoughts for another day, not feeling much in the mood for it, lyl xoxo

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 16:03:57 GMT

Wow so it's been a while... crazyness as usual... schools almost over.. so so close.. finals next week.. field trip to Ridin' Hy.. yeah so much fun... lol

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Tue, 02 May 2006 20:18:19 GMT

Timothy 2:22- "Flee also youthful lusts; but pursue righteousness, faith, love, peace with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart."

Proverbs 4:23- "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the well-spring of life."

Romans 14:23- "Whatever is done without faith is sin."

James 1:17- "Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning."

Ecclesiates 3:1 & 5b- "To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose, a time to embrace, a time to refrain from embracing."

Matthew 6:24-"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 17:15:28 GMT

Within the last 2 weeks... God has been teaching me so much, about myself, about Him... and it is just amazing the way He works, I would probably be dead now if He wasn't in my life, and I can honestly say that... He is amazing, He will always be there to pick us up when you've hit rock bottom and can't see the use in picking yourself back up again..He'll show you the light, and give you a reason to keep going, to press on and stay strong, He'll give you a new hope

1 Timothy 4:12 - Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 13:18:17 GMT

" In the calm of your prescence, I am listening Lord, I am still, I am quiet, I am Yours"

I was consumed
By a life that I made
Destined to crash
Beat up and bruised
By the flashbacks of my own past
I tried to hide away
Till I heard you say

Lovely traces fall behind you
Turn around and you will see
Lovely Traces to remind you
Everything that you've been through
What it took to get you to me

All my mistakes
Regrettable choices I'd like to forget
But somehow you make
All that I wasted useful again
I thought I fell from grace
But you can't erase

The Lovely traces fall behind you
Turn around and you will see
Lovely Traces to remind you
Everything that you've been through
What it took to get you to me

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 01:34:32 GMT

Today twas funnnn! I have a sunburn yesss! And i got tonsss of hugs, ahhh the world is at peace.. well.. my world i love you ladies n gents lotsss!